It never fails. Whenever you feel pretty good about yourself something happens that makes you feel very, very small. I’ve been a member of an online sewing community for the past five years. I absolutey loved the site and it’s members and spent many happy hours there looking at people’s projects, showing my own and chatting about sewing. I even ran the Expert Forum (a title I was never comfortable with because I’m certainly not an expert) for several years – until my work load became so great that I could no longer handle it. Still, I was very active on the message boards when I was able. I’m certainly not a sewing expert – I will be the first one to tell you that. Instead, I consider myself a sewing student – always studying, always learning, always experimenting. Sewing does come naturally to me, that I will admit. Even back in Home Ec my fellow students always asked me for help. Not because I knew everything but because I was always finished before everyone else.
I’m no longer participating at the site but am still lurking, looking at people’s projects and keeping up with what’s going on. Now I wish I had just made a clean break. It’s pretty humiliating to find out that while you thought you were being helpful, answering people’s questions, so many thought you were just being a know-it-all and blowing your own horn. I wish I could go back and delete everything I’ve ever written. Actually, I could – but that would be entirely misconstrued. Then people would say that I was worried about someone stealing my ideas. They aren’t my ideas at all, just things I’ve learned over the years. Luckily, the way the site is growing I know that I will disappear into cyberspace in short order – a small comfort.
Last week, Mary Beth and I were joking that, if left to our own devices, we might become sewing hermits. Right now, that sounds like a pretty swell idea. I have a small note hung to the right of my desk that reads “sewing washes from the soul the dust of everyday life”. Now that’s good advice. Time to buck up and sew something.